What was I thinking? I’m talking about the blatant disregard for my own and others safety. In the description of what it was like, in my last post, It’s Payday! Ah the mind of a budding addict. I was craving a feeling of connection. I had a vast hole, or it felt like one, in my being. SomethingContinue reading “What is wrong with this picture?”
Those were the words of Roger B. at The Retreat in Wayzata The Retreat His words stuck home with me that day in November 1998. I was done and had finally reached the point where I was “willing to go to any lengths to get it” I had to want to be “done” in order for anyContinue reading ““I hope you’re done and not here just to take a break”.”
The appetites of the natural self, lead me to experience enough anguish and despair that ultimately compel me to surrender. After I’ve surrendered I experience true freedom.
It was easier for me to continue to be dishonest, deceit had become an ingrained habit and because there was a grain of truth in the story or even once was true, it was more believable than an honest expression of what was. I couldn’t exist comfortably in who I really was, I had toContinue reading “Easier”
Hi how are you?…no! I am serious How are you doing, feeling, etc? I am interested. Welcome to my blog. I have invited all to share in my ramblings and musings about my journey of self discovery. At this point, I shall inform you a little, (nearly all) about myself. I entered this realm inContinue reading “Who The F%*k am I”