An Apparition

A mirage of sorts, though it can’t be seen or even concretely described. I know it, feel it and can almost taste it. When I can capture it and possess it for my own, I will finally feel relieved of this wretched craving. Therein lies my affliction. Reliance on created things for solace. As soon asContinue reading “An Apparition”

It’s not For Sale

As much as it may seem or as much as I pretend to have gained through the ravages of active addiction and the process of recovering from it. I still feel like a pathetic fool and a fraud. There is something below in my psyche that tells me I have a price to pay andContinue reading “It’s not For Sale”

The Objective Seems Obvious

I find the writings of Thomas Merton a profound foretaste to what is painfully obvious to me in today’s media and political and cultural discourse. “A message to Poets” Thomas Merton  February 1964 “COLLECTIVE LIFE is often organized on the basis of cunning, doubt, and guilt. True solidarity is destroyed by the political art of pitting one manContinue reading “The Objective Seems Obvious”

The most valuable thing

It was slightly more than 20 years ago. A delightful summer afternoon, ironically this memory includes me mowing the lawn. Ironic because I because I mow lawns for a living in the summer. My friend John is walking by. I stop what I’m doing to visit. He tells me about a new type of treatment program thatContinue reading “The most valuable thing”

Vindictive

I can no longer endure the psychic pain of resentment. I must be rid of it as soon as it becomes evident in my thought. “resentment is like me taking poison and hoping someone else dies”. -Unknown   To be rid of it Consider the person, place, thing or situation. What happened Consider how this affects meContinue reading “Vindictive”

Suffering

I posted this as a reflection to my Instagram a year ago. I have migrated to this delightful world called WordPress. This is an excerpt from Thomas Merton’s autobiography Seven Storey Mountain. “Indeed, the truth that many people never understand, until it is too late, is that the more you try to avoid suffering, the more youContinue reading “Suffering”

6,741 days, one at a time.

This is a totally random choice to feature this achievement, of which I can take little of the credit. I have followed the path of many before, who by sharing their experience, have managed to make it through a day without the use of substances to impair themselves in order to relieve  The Longing  

How does that lead to Integrity?

Welcome, if you’ve not been following along on our trip, investigating the spiritual principles behind working the steps found in the 12 Steps, primarily from the book Alcoholics Anonymous So here we are at Step 5 Admitted to God, to ourselves and to another human being, the exact nature of our wrongs. I am not going to talkContinue reading “How does that lead to Integrity?”

Courage

Courage is defined as noun: the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear; bravery I’ll take this definition a step further. As the quality within to take action in spite of fear. Why? you may wonder, do I need to be courageous. As I am progressing through my endeavorContinue reading “Courage”

Great, so Now What?

I am continuing my series on principles I aspire to integrate into to my being. So here I am having been reduced to the point of Surrender. I have arrived at the crossroad and the resulting option is killing myself, being locked up or Honesty. Having decided I want to live a free life and am in a positionContinue reading “Great, so Now What?”

Books by Patricia Furstenberg

Travel, History, Fiction and Dogs

11thofsummer Blogs!

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Rethinking Life

Art and the philosophy of life

Ursus Art

Artworks by artist Eva Mout

Wishing Tree

healing - connecting - empowering - thriving

I Know I Made You Smile

cartoons/humor/fiction/nonfiction

Happily Lover

Happily Ever After

Humoring the Goddess

Croning My Way Through Life

Kingdom Pastor

Living Freely In God's Kingdom