Mystery Blogger Award

Alas, I have been nominated for the Mystery Blogger Award. I will thank Emerging From The Dark Night for this. I would also like to thank the creator of the award, Okoto Enigma’s Blog

Rules

  1. Place award logo in post-I found one in Google images not sure if it’s original
  2. Name and link to creator of the award
  3. Thank and link to the blogger that nominated you.
  4. List the rules
  5. Tell readers three things about yourself
  6. Nominate 10-20 Bloggers. Notify by commenting on their blog
  7. Ask 5 question of your nominees
  8. Share link(s) to your best Post(s)

So Here we go! Three Things

  1. I am 68 1/2″ tall
  2. I walked 133,438 steps last week doing my job (self employed-Landscape Maintenance)
  3. I miss the ocean

Answers

Where do you feel most at home? I’m am working toward and getting better at, Right Here!

What lights you up inside? Helping people

What has been your deepest heartbreak? Not having the drive or initiative to do as good as I could growing up.

What do you feel is one of your strengths? Curiosity

What is your favorite way of relaxing? A great meal out with friend(s)

My Nominees

Find Your Middle Ground

RobertCDay

FitRecovery

Real Life As An MSW

My Valiant Soul

A Soft Place to Rest

Orbis Marketing

Mitch Teemley

Cory Melancon

J-Dub’s Grin and Bear It

Questions for you

Favorite Movie-Mine is The Sting

Favorite musical artist- Mine is Joe Satriani

Best meal out what did you have and who were you with- For me there are too many to remember

Favorite Vacation Destination- Mine is Kaanapali Maui

Goofy Question Favorite Cartoon Character Mine is Tazmainian Devil- Loony Tunes

Best posts

Oh boy, this is going to hurt.

The Longing

What even is that?

So there you have it…Voila

Mine

What of me is mine? This body flesh and all will be consumed by the earth

What of my soul? surely belongs to God and is not mine and never was.

My actions are derived from what’s there for me to do and what my wants include, from that I may be compensated to barter for shelter and sustenance.

My thoughts, too are formed from desires and needs.

Then the urge to share, through communication of my native language in written form, is a drive that I cannot take credit for.

An appetite for nutritious food for my soul, reading expertly expressed ideas and experiences, discoveries, conjectures, and conclusions. voice instead

The curious and miraculous rhythm of nature and all that I am able to grasp of that. Engaging in work and physical activity, for no reason than to experience that and do it well.

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Consider the patience and vigilance until they find something to grab onto

None of it can I claim is mine or belonging to me. What of you is yours?

 

What am I afraid of?

To be honest with you, I can’t put my finger on it. I’m fairly level headed, open-minded I am committed to improving myself. I still can’t shake the idea that I’ll be found to be unappealing, odd what have you. I am petrified at the thought of putting myself out there and opening myself up for disappointment and ridicule.

I like who I have become. I want to be counted on, to be thought about and anticipated. Perhaps, I should give myself more time. I’m still afraid.

Maturity

In light of the disastrous nature of discourse in the headlines, I am struck with the poignancy of Thomas Merton’s words in this excerpt from No Man Is an Island written in 1955

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“I cannot make good choices unless I develop a mature and prudent conscience that gives me an accurate account of my motives, my intentions, and my moral acts. The word to be stressed here is mature. An infant, not having a conscience, is guided in its “decisions” by the attitude of somebody else. The immature conscience is one that bases its judgments partly, or even entirely, on the way other people seem to be disposed toward its decisions. The good is what is admired or accepted by the people it lives with. The evil is what irritates or upsets them. Even when the immature conscience is not entirely dominated by people outside itself, it nevertheless acts only as a representative of some other conscience. The immature conscience is not its own master. It is merely the delegate of the conscience of another person, or of a group, or of a party, or of a social class, or of a nation, or of a race. Therefore, it does not make real moral decisions of its own, it simply parrots the decisions of others. It does not make judgments of its own, it merely “conforms” to the party line. It does not really have motives or intentions of its own. Or if it does, it wrecks them by twisting and rationalizing them to fit the intentions of another. That is not moral freedom. It makes true love impossible. For if I am to love truly and freely, I must be able to give something that is truly my own to another. If my heart does not first belong to me, how can I give it to another? It is not mine to give.”

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Pelican

Woah, just woah! Have I some growing up to do. Just a bit of nutrition I am consuming.

A Paradox

“Unselfish love that is poured out upon a selfish object does not bring perfect happiness: not because love requires a return or a reward for loving, but because it rests in the happiness of the beloved. And if the loved one receives love selfishly, the lover is not satisfied. He sees that his love has failed to make the beloved happy. It has not awakened his/her capacity for unselfish love.

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Red and Yellow

Hence the paradox that unselfish love cannot rest perfectly except in a love that is perfectly reciprocated: because it knows that the only true peace is found in selfless love. Selfless love consents to be loved selflessly for the sake of the beloved. In so doing, it perfects itself.

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wild yellow

The gift of love is the gift of power and the capacity to love, and therefore, to give love with full effect is also to receive it. So, love can only be given perfectly when it is also received.” Thomas Merton No Man Is an Island

Somehow I have intuitively known or felt this “truth” as Thomas Merton describes. I continually “fall on my sword” in relationship and expend good love after bad. I am helplessly attracted to women who are emotionally or physically unavailable. It is safer I guess.

 

 

 

 

 

Liebster Award

I have been nominated for the Liebster Award. yay!

Thank you PurposeDrivenLife for the nomination

The rules of this award:

1. Acknowledge the blog who nominated you and display the award.
2. Answer the 11 questions the blogger gives you.
3. Give 11 random facts about yourself.
4. Nominate 11 blogs.
5. Notify those blogs of the nomination.
6. Give them 11 questions to answer

Answers to questions asked

1. People invest time and energy into developing their career, their bodies and their relationships, but often neglect their spiritual dimension of their lives.How do you actively pursue spiritual growth?

My blog is essentially the answer to this. I operate a simple service oriented business. I pray meditate and read scripture and hang with like minded humans.

2. What is your concept of God? Do you view Him positively or negatively?

God is impossible to describe conceptually. The greatest obstacle to finding God is the word, God. I view God positively.

3. How do you deal with people in your life that you don’t like?

I don’t, lols I do my best to treat them with loving kindness at best and ignore them at worst.

4. What are you most afraid of?

That people would find out what I’m really like, a wretched frightened lying thief, doing my best to maintain a facade of living a decent human existence. (only partially true)

5. What makes you smile?

Watching Canada Geese stop traffic on a busy boulevard.

6. What’s is your main reason why you write or blog?

I began as a place to express myself in a journal of sorts detailing my journey. I hope now though, that my writing of my experience might help others.

7. Do you believe in love at first sight?

My current views of real love would make that impossible. It takes more than sight.

8. What inspires you?

Nature in all of its violence and beauty

9. What is your motivation in relationships, pleasing yourself or serving others?

The happiness of my beloved. There is no other way.

10. How you spend your free time?

Reading, writing, riding my bike, continuing to get stuff put away from moving.

11. What does your perfect day look like?

It’s happening right now

Great questions.

Facts about me

  1. I’ll be 58 Next Friday
  2. I’m divorced with 2 daughters (not living with me) 14, and 10 years old
  3. I’ve only always just ended up doing what seemed the next thing to do professionally. Factory worker, Busboy/Bellman, Waiter, Navy deckhand, Ranch hand, Waiter, Cook, Culinary student, Chef, Baker, Pastry Chef, Property Appraiser, Unemployed, Construction Project Manager (Roofing) Property manager, Handyman. Self Employed Landscape maintenance.
  4. The opposite of risk averse.
  5. Covered with body hair except for my head, I’m nearly bald.
  6. I’m 5’8″ tall size 11 1/2 shoe, 32″ waist, 32″ inseam, 16 1/2″ x 32 Shirt
  7. Shorts, tropical shirt and topsiders are my preferred uniform.
  8. I have well over 50 tropical shirts, Reyn Spooner, Tommy Bahama and others
  9. I’m beginning to find this difficult.
  10. I love and live to serve God and others.
  11. I found that mildly annoying…Just kidding.

 

Please forgive me as I do not respond well to recognition. I would like to think that it is humility, but is likely shame oriented. I don’t feel I know enough about any of the bloggers I follow to hazard making any nominations. I felt I should play along to the extent that I did but that is all.

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Me in case you were wondering

 

 

I’ve been Busy

I’ll soon be back to my tour through the principles I have aspired to incorporate into my being. In the meantime, I have been moving getting settled and working. I do landscape maintenance, which I am loving for a number of reasons. Number one on the list is that it’s outside. Two it is service oriented and the sights.

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in a pond on the job

Being out among God’s creatures brings joy

I am very active and where most pay for gym membership, I get paid for my daily exercise. There are some frustrations though. Customers that think their lawn is less than 4″ when I can cut 40% off and it is still taller than 4″. People that try to get something on the cheap can never be satisfied.

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less than 4″?

All in life is great The new place is awesome laundry in the unit all amenities included, gas/electric, cable, and internet. Shopping and eating out within walking distance and a beautiful historic neighborhood. I will be continuing soon with principles. Thank all of you for following