Thank you, but I want this

Alas, here I am again, in anguish, insisting that I have things the way I would prefer. I even have the audacity to say this encounter has been blessed, that God approves of me choosing to seek divine Love from unreliable sources.

I do believe in a blessed human love, though I wonder why I’m consistently ignoring what is constantly right there. Perfect understanding, knowledge of all my weakness and limitless care for my well being.

Gods cloud

Why must I hunger for something so elusive and prone to typical human frailty? The more it escapes my grasp, the more I crave. Am I addicted to such self-abuse? Evidently, as sad as that is to admit, I must increase my effort to realize His Love for me and to integrate the truth that, that is enough. From there I will begin to love myself enough to abstain from one-sided affairs.

That is all thanks for stopping by

4 thoughts on “Thank you, but I want this

  1. Perfect love only comes from God. We humans each have our flaws, so we must learn forgiveness and not expect any human to fill the place God alone can fill. Our flaws can bring us together or drive us apart, real love is unconditional. Love is what’s important not the flawed vessels through which we perceive it.
    Hope you find a wonderful earthly vessel through which God can pour his love for you and meanwhile have peace that having yet to find such a one you grow deep in His love and spirit.

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