I have all my needs provided for or acquired. I find myself craving more. As the result of paying close attention to my desires and potential drives behind them. I have found that I can never really have what I am hoping to possess in some way. I have yet to figure out why I become obsessed with what I can really never have in the way I imagine.
I am in fact sure that if I did get it, I would no longer want it with the same passion that I wanted for it in the first place. What is it about me that I contort my principles to appeal another that I might be found in their favor, while at the same time the reaction to me is one of ambivalence or perhaps even indifference. It leaves me wanting it even more
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While all along there are those that are available, yet there is only mild interest on my part.
I think I am afraid to make authentic connections and receive the Love an appreciation that I’m not sure I deserve but should.
Stumbling spiritual pilgrim on my way from here to here. Recovered Addict, US Navy Veteran. Sharing my journey of self discovery, in the spirit of service, generosity and gratitude.
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22 thoughts on “My Frailty”
This is really not too hard to answer. First you (or your character if you are a writer) do not have self-esteem, otherwise known as confidence. Second you are lacking in contentment – a contented person is satisfied with what he has. Third, in Biblical terminology you are ‘lusting’ what belongs to others which can lead to all sorts of problems.
#3 is the only one that relates to being weak. Frail and delicate are circumstances of birth and health. Work on the first two and lock the door against the third.
Interesting thoughts. I sometimes thinking to hard is its own challenge. Change something. Routine. Thoughts. Surroundings. Brings it off the rutted road. My two bits anyway ~L
LOL. Of course it is. But the rub lies there. You can continue the same ol same ol and feel the discontent or itchyness of dissatisfaction. Which can be a real beast. OR. Take some small steps into the unknown and change, do, calm/sooth the inner self.
We are who we are, but we can challenge ourselves, live, be the same and different dispite frailties.
Ya know these are questions that at time plague most of not all of us. It’s the age old “when is enough, enough?” The answer I think is at any moment when we fully embrace who and what we are and learn to find joy in the simple pleasures of life. This is not our home and so we are always longing for more of what our limited lives can offer us when in reality it is a longing for that touch of our Maker once more. 🙂 ❤
I think searching for this love or affection will lead to utter dismay…I think people fail to realise from the start that you just have to be yourself..in doing so, you attract the right people to your circle of love where you will abundantly give affection and receive more than you asked for.
Well I usually don’t want for much and have all I need so anything that shows up whether in person or substance is an extra blessing to me, 💛🙏🏼 Love your observations
I'm a writer for the lovers, dreamers and believers. For the hope give-ups and the heart beat-ups. If you live to read rhyme, you will love the lines in mine.
This is really not too hard to answer. First you (or your character if you are a writer) do not have self-esteem, otherwise known as confidence. Second you are lacking in contentment – a contented person is satisfied with what he has. Third, in Biblical terminology you are ‘lusting’ what belongs to others which can lead to all sorts of problems.
#3 is the only one that relates to being weak. Frail and delicate are circumstances of birth and health. Work on the first two and lock the door against the third.
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Nailed it! Thank you it’s more of an admission and confession,
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Interesting thoughts. I sometimes thinking to hard is its own challenge. Change something. Routine. Thoughts. Surroundings. Brings it off the rutted road. My two bits anyway ~L
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But I’m comfortable here. The unknown is scary
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LOL. Of course it is. But the rub lies there. You can continue the same ol same ol and feel the discontent or itchyness of dissatisfaction. Which can be a real beast. OR. Take some small steps into the unknown and change, do, calm/sooth the inner self.
We are who we are, but we can challenge ourselves, live, be the same and different dispite frailties.
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Perhaps realising this is a first step. We cant change what we dont know or accept. ❤
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Yes realizing, admitting, having faith in the love that surrounds me. Asking for and accepting help 🙏🏼💐
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Yes ask each morning for HP to help you live in love and not fear, surrender. Its not easy but it can be done. 🙂
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Also I love those words ‘having faith in the love that surrounds me” that would make a great blog ❤
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I’ll do it I have another one I’m formulating. The most valuable thing I have to offer is my attention
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Ya know these are questions that at time plague most of not all of us. It’s the age old “when is enough, enough?” The answer I think is at any moment when we fully embrace who and what we are and learn to find joy in the simple pleasures of life. This is not our home and so we are always longing for more of what our limited lives can offer us when in reality it is a longing for that touch of our Maker once more. 🙂 ❤
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Thank you Natalie I am intentionally staying in the unknowing that I might be open to learn. If I begin to think that I know… I’m cooked 🔥
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I think we are meant to stay in the unknowing and I rather like the mystery at times! 🙂 ❤
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I think searching for this love or affection will lead to utter dismay…I think people fail to realise from the start that you just have to be yourself..in doing so, you attract the right people to your circle of love where you will abundantly give affection and receive more than you asked for.
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Kalama, you are absolutely right. I am psychically split from my true self and God when I desire in that way
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Yeah..glad it was helpful
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There is some seriously deep stuff here, Jeff.
Vulnerability is not easy. But, how frail are we? All humans are. And we go and harden ourselves, closing off the option of true growth.
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Thank you
I think the key at least for me is being aware and admitting it. Then growth away from it becomes possible with help from fellow sufferers
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Nice article
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Thank you for stopping by
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Well I usually don’t want for much and have all I need so anything that shows up whether in person or substance is an extra blessing to me, 💛🙏🏼 Love your observations
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I do like to think I have what I want but when in honest awareness desire is there. Turning desire to aspiration is found by grace imho. 🙏🏼💐🤗😘
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