I am endeavoring to examine my fears, as I don’t seem to be afraid of much, but I do have a nagging suspicion that I am not living up to my potential. I am arriving at this conclusion through self-examination and while I am grateful for what I have and do my best to share, I think I’ve fallen into the trap of comparison. Setting the comparison bit aside for now I am sure that fear, the self-centered variety, not the survival instinct type, is the obstacle that is interfering.
How is it then that Perfect Love is able to vanquish my fear? and What is it after all that I am afraid of? I am going to dig into this this a bit and in the act of composition and presenting this, perhaps an answer will emerge. I’ll start with perfect.
As an adjective perfect is described as
- Being without flaw or defect
- Satisfying all requirements
- corresponding to an ideal standard or abstract concept
- Faithfully reproducing the original
- Legally valid
The definition goes on but I get the point as something to aim for but not necessarily achievable. Onward
Perfect as a verb
- to bring to final form
- to make perfect : improve or refine
Love, well now what have we here, if I am to find or practice Perfect Love in order to be liberated from Fear?
Love as a noun is described described as
- strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties
- attraction based on sexual desire : affection and tenderness felt by lovers
- affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests
- an assurance of affection
Okay right I get that and am sure I’ve also sought that and, tried as best as I could to express (l)ove
I like Anthony de Mello’s definition
Clarity of perception and accuracy in response
Now what do I know of Love? Not much when it has come from humans, other than my mom and other family. However I have the experience of God knowing my heart and loving me precisely as I am. That is the way I strive to love others. I am utterly incapable of this without His love transforming my entire being.
Now back to the Perfection of Love alleviating fear. In order for me to be fearful I am dwelling in another realm, the future. Fear is obliterated in His presence. If I am remorseful or plagued with regret I am focused on the past, another realm I visit. I am blemish free in The Father’s view as I abide in The ultimate Act of Love for Creation.
I have a mission, that being, to examine myself honestly, which is tricky because self/ego wants me to die, or so it seems at times. I should also, as I catalogue my findings admit them and dwell in His grace, becoming willing to be transformed and to enlist His aide as I cooperate with Him by shifting my focus from, my pain and frailty, toward others, knowing well that He Loves them.
Perfect Love is The Present